Feeling Some Kind of Way


Feeling some kind of way. If you’re like me, you use this rather imprecise phrase to describe a rather pointed feeling that you have. For most, it’s just another way of saying that something’s bothering them. For me though, it goes a little deeper, and it has some heftier subtext to it.

When I’m feeling some kind of way, I’m usually experiencing one of three things. I may be experiencing emotional/cognitive dissonance, or I may be having a bought of mystic melancholy or divine discontent. On rare occasions, I’m just straight up pissed off and grumpy about something, but for whatever reason I’m trying to be a bit more polite or tactful about expressing it. (That tends to be a rarity for me NOT because I’m too enlightened to experience such negative moods, but because I tend to be more vocal and less concerned about putting it as politely as ‘feeling some kind of way’.)

While we all occasionally experience a case of cranky’s, that’s not really the focus of this article. Let’s look at these other shades of feeling and go into some detail though.

Cognitive and Emotional Dissonance 

Cognitive dissonance is the experience of holding two conflicting viewpoints or beliefs at the same time.  Emotional dissonance is basically the feeling that you get when you’re examining something that threatens your sense of identity. I am lumping these two together for the purposes of this article because I tend to have the most experience with them in the same context. (And I suspect that many of the folks reading are of the intuitive leaning, so I imagine that you may be having these experiences without realizing it.)

Empaths and intuitives will have impressions or experiences that make them question their own sanity.  Many of these experiences are actually cognitive or emotional dissonance. Many (if not most) of these experiences are triggered by over-identifying with someone else’s energy – be it emotional, mental or experiential.  So we just need to be able to say “This isn’t my crap! I don’t have to deal with it! Yay!” and then move on, right?? If only it were that simple!

Being open enough to experience another person’s perspective frequently means encountering emotions, opinions and ideas that are foreign to your own.   Identifying when these thoughts and feelings originate with someone else is truly an art-form that empaths in particular have to develop for survival.  Dissonance occurs when something gets stuck in works.  This can only occur when it’s illuminating an aspect of our own experience that strikes some sort of resonance with the ‘guest thought/emotion’.

When such a resonance occurs, it becomes your responsibility to explore this territory. This is one of those beautiful moments that you get to learn something more about yourself! And guess what? A lot of times, we don’t greet these moments with leaps of joy because they tend to be uncomfortable.

Let me give you an example that I got to witness a few years ago.  A heterosexual male friend of mine was present while I was discussing the attractiveness of a guy that had come into the shop I was working in with a female co-worker.  The straight friend piped in and agreed that the fellow in question was indeed attractive.  He even went on to disagree with my co-worker and I about what the fellow’s most attractive feature was.  Then I saw it wash over his face.  Blessedly, he felt comfortable enough with me to be able to talk through the train of thought causing him some dissonance.  He questioned how he found the cute guy attractive, and started to really wonder if he may have some latent gay feelings, and it was making him rather uncomfortable.  He explored this sensation, and over the course of about a week was able to confidently affirm that he is indeed straight, but falls a little more towards the middle of the Kinsey scale of sexuality than he originally thought.  The struggle for him was visibly uncomfortable as he wrestled with how he defined his attraction, but he walked away from the experience feeling more enlightened.

This kind of moment is all too common for intuitives and empaths.  That said, it is an invitation, not an excuse.  It’s an invitation to know yourself more deeply, which my personal belief says that this is the prime reason for our experience in the human day-to-day world.  This is by no means an excuse to belittle or berate others’ views, or worse yet, martyr yourself.  (I see this waaaaayyyyy too often.)

For me, just knowing that this has a name helps me to navigate through the experience of dissonance. I’m not usually happy when it’s occurring, but I’m always grateful for the growth that it brings.

Mystic Melancholy and Divine Discontent

These are two terms that I became familiar while reading an author named Orion Foxwood (fantastic author on fairy traditions, southern conjure and witchcraft). Both of these experiences are driven from the level of spirit.  It isn’t uncommon to feel down or to feel like things need to change.  Sometimes though, the feeling surpasses what we normally experience as depression. That’s not even necessarily that we’re feeling lower than usually do, but that there’s a difference. The feeling runs deeper, and there’s a sense of longing with it.  I describe it like my soul is singing a song that I can’t remember the words to.  This is mystic melancholy.

Mystic melancholy occurs when your soul is longing for a connection that’s missing.  A lot of times this can be confusing because we often don’t have a conscious idea or experience of what it is that we’re missing.  We just know that part of us is reaching out for something that isn’t there in the moment.

Conversely, Divine Discontent occurs when change needs to occur, usually because we are out of our soul’s flow. Most often, we are doing something to gum up the works, and this will manifest as an anxiety or nearly compulsive need to change something around.  Many times we displace the feeling into changing things that we have more immediate control over, but this is just a coping mechanism.  Divine discontent presents itself when we are just plain out of alignment with our deeper purpose.

Let me give a current example through my own personal sob story. (I am a good Pisces, so I’m great at martyring myself and whining, so why not put it to good use in my writing, right?) So, some time ago, I decided that I needed to have a more normal working experience than to be a full time psychic reader.  (Just believe me when I say I had my reasons, and the financial aspect was not the most driving one – but definitely did factor in.) I felt like I needed a normal job with a steady paycheck.  So I found one, and then promptly found a much better one. I took the job and I love my coworkers (and I even love my supervisor. As a matter of fact, I love most of the supervisors there. The people I work with are kind of amazing!) I set my intention with the Universe, and this job very quickly manifested and was everything I could’ve wanted in a ‘normal’ job.  Unfortunately, it wasn’t too long before I started getting antsy.  This rapidly progressed into dreading having to go into work.  All the while, I’m trying to adjust other factors of my life to compensate.  I adjusted my schedule, my diet, rearranged furniture – I projected my discontent into every other area of my life.  And what does it boil down to? I’m out of alignment with putting more time into a job than into my calling.

That’s right – my desire for normal and predictable completely screwed me over.  Now, does that mean that I’m going to completely screw someone else over in turn by just up and quitting? No.  No amount of personal pain or struggle entitles you to be hurtful to someone else.  And just because I stepped out of alignment doesn’t give me permission to be irresponsible to step back into my alignment.  I have plans in place to be able to transition back to my full-time magical lifestyle, and I’ve been open and honest with my supervisor about my intention. We found a date range that will be the least detrimental for me to leave the company, and I intend to stick it out until then (unless the Universe gives me a huge clue-by-four across the head that I need to not wait it out).

So, when I’m feeling some kind of way, the first thing I try to do is dig a little deeper so that I have a clear picture of my motivations and where my feeling is coming from.  When I feel this way, I usually know that there’s something else brewing under the surface. I may not be able to slap a band-aid on it and call it good, but once I’ve acknowledged the complete picture of what’s happening with me I find some peace. This peace comes from the fact that moving through my discomfort has led me to deeper and more satisfying experiences of joy in my life.  And while it doesn’t usually make the experience any less intense, this does seem to grant me enough strength and patience to see my way through it. It is my hope that this article can help you with recognizing this process in your own life, so that you can take the reigns and embrace the change instead of getting in your own way.


Brightest Blessings!



Psychic Art versus Spirit Art

Many folks don’t even realize that there’s a difference between psychic art and spirit art. Well, there is.  Psychic art deals with the energy of the sitter predominantly, whereas spirit art conveys more of a message from the spirit world.  Not only is there a difference between psychic art and spirit art – there are multiple kinds of each!

Just as every psychic, medium and artist has their own approach, each psychic/spirit artist has their own take on how they bring their art forward. A person can connect with a psychic spirit artist and receive vastly different works by the same person depending on what it is that they are seeking.  I’ll share an example of this in just a few moments, but first let’s cover some of the different kinds of psychic and spirit art that is offered.

Psychic Art

An Auragraph is a deceptive term. Auragraphs are actually visual representations of what clairvoyants pick up. You can think about it as a pictorial representation of the impressions flashing through the psychic’s mind. (The term ‘auragraph’ was coined by the psychic artist Harold Sharpe, and the technique is more widespread in the Spiritualist readers in the UK.)

Aura Drawings are probably what you were originally thinking of when I mentioned the auragraph.  Aura drawings are artistic renderings of the energy field around your body.  This is an excellent technique to engage in for the purposes of energy healing, and to map the movement of energy immediately surrounding you.

Precognitive art is not something typically sought after, but more something that sometimes happens.  Those with an artistic mindset tend to be more tuned in to their intuition than a lot of folks.  That being said, it isn’t uncommon for an artist to produce a piece that turns out to be a scene or an object that plays out later on (sometimes centuries later).  For instance, Leonardo DaVinci’s famous ‘flying machine’ could be be argued to be a psychic impression of the helicopter.

Remote viewers also produce ideograms and renderings, but this isn’t necessarily thought of as psychic art.  The pictures produced by remote viewers are more like gesture drawings, or crude maps to help delineate the impressions that they are receiving.

Manifestation Mandalas are a form of psychic spirit art that I’ve developed to give a visual point focal point to aid in the process of manifestation.  I go into reading for the person and we determine what goal they are working towards manifesting. I connect with their guides and we bring into being a visual representation of that energy for the person to focus on during meditation (and during their everyday life as well) to help reinforce the presence of that energy.  This magnetizes the person’s energy field to draw the goal closer even faster, while helping them to maintain their focus. Remediation Mandalas are along the same premise, but are more focused on remedying a challenge energy, and are usually connected to astrological aspects that a person is experiencing. (I frequently will use the shapes made in a person’s natal chart as inspiration for Remediation Mandalas.)

Spirit Art

Much of the spirit art that I do tends to be sketches of Spirit Guides.  I find these to be helpful

Spirit art is more directly influenced by spirits, and is usually a pictorial representation of a spirit communicator or guide.  Most of the time, spirit artists seem to have a different style of rendering the portraits between guides and spirit communicators. Many times, a guide is able to more readily and clearly convey the form that they take.  This has to do with the fact that spirit guides are ‘trained’ and accustomed to interacting with the those in the physical realm in a way that many spirit communicators simply are not able to do. In short, guides can communicate more clearly with mediums because they are better at going back and forth between here and the less tangible world of Spirit.

A commissioned piece of spirit inspired art is when a person asks for a rendering of a particular spirit.  This differs from spirit guide drawings because in a spirit guide drawing the guide themselves are the ones initiating the contact.

Spirit portraits focus on portraying loved ones and spirits that have passed on.  I find evidential portraiture very difficult because of how I communicate with spirits.  During a sitting, I connect with the spirit and while I describe the person I am impressed with their features individually, but not as a complete picture. (For instance, I’ll see a pointy nose, then the color and shape of the eye, then a particular hairstyle, but not necessarily all on one person.)  Most of the spirit portraiture I do tends to be from spirits that approach me, and not during a reading.  Many of these spirits actually haven’t yet crossed fully into the Otherworld, and this form of portraiture I tend to do alone and in silence.  The trance state that overtakes me while doing these portraits is not really conducive to performing a reading.  I also tend to get lost in time doing these.

Let’s See What You Mean

A colleague of mine has agreed to let me use some of the work I’ve done for him as an example in this post. While these are not necessarily what I’d share as the best examples of my work, they do illustrate the point of difference between the different forms of art.



This is an auragraph that I did in the space of about 15 minutes (typically I alot 40 minutes for an auragraph drawing, but I was trying to see how feasible it was to do an auragraph for mini readings. The answer is – not feasible at all.) Here you can see a gesture drawing in the middle of man sleeping, as well as the figure of a phoenix/peacock and another fiery figure above. The colors emanating around the head are indicative of healing, and the general theme of this reading was the need for rest to rejuvenate and finding inspiration.


Here is another auragraph drawn for guidance on a particular situation. This is from a 30 minute session, so still a bit rushed, but a very effective piece conveying a message of direction and balancing all of the different aspects of life.

Spirit Guide Rendering


This is an inlay of a particularly feisty guide of a fay persuasion connected with this person. This rendering was done in under ten minutes while the guide was giving suggestions to help bring more joy into his life.



I wasn’t especially fond of the first picture, so I decided to connect with this same guide and produce a new piece. This doesn’t turn out too bad considering that it was my first time using only soft pastels instead of a mix. This took about 30-40 minutes.

Commissioned Spirit Drawing


This is a picture of Oya, the Orisha of Wind and Cemeteries.  The same colleague asked me to connect with Oya and draw her for his altar.  This came from a thirty minute sitting. (Once again, I prefer about 40-45 minutes at least for most forms of psychic or spirit art sittings.)


Manifestation Mandala



This is a mandala that his guides inspired me to create for self love.  This piece was completed in about 35-40 minutes.

As you can see from the four pieces above, you can get wildly different pieces depending on what you are asking for.  Most of these are just sketches that accompany readings, but you can see how varied these pieces can be.

Spirit Portraiture

These are portraits of spirits that weren’t completed during readings. The first is the spirit of a man who came to me late one evening and wished to be drawn.  The second is of a woman who had passed of breast cancer and came through in a gallery reading. Unfortunately, nobody present claimed her so she came home with me for a minute until I decided to draw her (which frequently helps me to release the spirit from my energy.)

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Just Because

This is a picture that I’m working on for Hekate, Lady of the Crossroads and Bearer of the Torch.  She and I have a long history and I was inspired to draw her the other day.

And finally, this is a manifestation mandala that I did for myself with a focus on abundance.  I titled the piece ‘Germinating’, and I figured that this was a good piece to wrap up on.  Having a clear idea of the different expressions of psychic and spirit art can give you a good idea what is possible during a psychic/spirit art sitting, as well as the direction you may want to grow towards with your own mediumship or art.



Brightest Blessings!